Succcck it up

I'm blogging on my phone right now cause I think I just needa rant, about everything. So no pictures. I don't even care if I don't always have cool stuff to show or say. Just things to get off my mind.

I'm scared shitless to actually go to college. Its driving me crazy thinking I'm not gonna be with everyone anymore. I'm thinking about how easy it honestly is to loose touch w/ someone. I've done it so many times already, &it sucks. I know that 98% of the people in highschool I won't have anything to do with anymore, but the 2% that really matter..I'm gonna miss them like crazy. I know I'm ready for bigger things, but I'm scared to go through things without them. I'm getting craazy random break downs ALLLL the time now. I can't help it, once I start thinking about it..ghfdjskal. I'm gonna be an anteater. I'm enjoying every minute of highschool right now. It's a lot of fun, I'll post those detailed days +pictures in the future

Other than that, 4 more tournaments? I realized basketball isn't my thing anymore. Actually, I realized that a long time ago. That love/hate relationship. I take too many things for granted and im selfish about it. I get too caught up in my own worries, when there are real problems I should be worrying about. I really gotta get some sense knocked into me. You're hellaa young &you're a fighter. Like you've taught me so much, I hope things get better. I'm only hoping for the best. &I also feel hella shitty that I put all my prom problems on one person who has way bigger problems to deal w/ than just mine. I'm sorry bff. Knoow I'm here to help ya now, and I'll work out prom on my own. I needaa just suck it up. Cause my baby problems are nothing, right?

Spring Breaaaaak!

Definitely not long enough. I need anothaaa week.

Friday, going to school early to make sure everything was gonna work out and settled. We set up the gym did the balloons, posters, everything. The assembly's went actually pretty well. Everything went as planned, we tried new seating and it worked. All the performances came through. All the crazy/last minute planning to what seemed stressful, really wasn't that bad. After the 2 assembly's we jetted outta there. "Senior Cut Day" I guess. It was not as planned as I hoped. Went and got food, then went to the Marina. I still had fun though. Even though it wasn't the entire senior class, there were still people I enjoy their company. Marvin know's how to bbq, and came super prepared. Then of course, tried to play soccer. Ahah. Afterwards I went home to get ready really fast. Me, Will, Gino, & Jada headed out to the city. Was early so went and got some snaaacks. The spaced out our tournament to one a day, so we lost our first game. Afterwards we went and saw some UFO response team cause there were aliens and spaceships! Ahah. But we bonfired w/ everyone. Thaaank you guys for coming out to my game too.

Saturdaaaay, we played again but this time at SI. w/ only 7 of us. We lost..wow. It sucked, but hey it happens. Idk what was happening to our team, we just started at a low low low low lowwww. Afterwards I came home &had wingstop. My bffff Noa came by to pick up some stuff and we had a important prom talk. Theeen, picked up Jada &Olivia at bart, took them back to Jada's. Then started getting reaaady. Jada and Olivia came back over to help me get ready then Kristen and Juan too. We went to Junior Prom, and did our thing for a little. Danced and what not, couldn't leave cause Juan didnt wanna leave! Aha, had our own partaaay in the coat check room. Afterwards Juan showed me and Kristen this greaaat surprise. Then got taco bell, with this weird ass guy at the drive through, &ate it at the Marina. Came home and craaaashed!

Sunday, 1015 game. Garbaaage, but finally got the W. Went to my cousin's then a starbucks run. Ahah, I chickened out. Sorrrrry! Then came home napped, and went back to my cousin's afterwards to watch Marley and Me.
Mondaaay, packed kinda. But failed. Me and Jada went all over Bayfair and got a whole bunch of nothings. Tried to pack somemore. Then off the Will's house. The booy's made us dinner. Yummmm. Then of course, we did are usual fun. HAHA, ohh boy. Oh yeah, and Kristen broke the screan door! Thaank ya Andrew for getting my absolute favorite of Flamin' hot funyons. Went back to Christine's house, and watched For the Love of RayJ, then craaaashed!

Tuesday-Thursday
Amaazing! omg I loooved it. We left way early in the morning. Thanks to Christines great pillow throwin at your face, we can never be late anymore! Everytime we got in the car. We slept. Like no matter what, we fell asleep. We stopped in the city, Solvang. Ahah, they're really famous for their Danish, and it was seriously really good! Then went to UCSB, even though that place rejected me. Whaaatev, went on that tour, our fashion queeeeeen tour guide. Craazzzy bikes, everywhere that speed! Left had lunch, theeen Anahiem! Got the to room, went swimming. Ahaha, made a really nice routine, creepy guys in the hot tub. Denny's afterwards, then to mall where we saw some guy in a dog costume just walkin around chillin'. Nice ass mall, full of all the designers you can dreaaam of. I was in loooove. Back to the hotel, ahah just a lottaa talkin with my girls. Sleeeept. Disneyland wednesday. <33333 nothing more at that. Just that disneyland is and always will be amazingggg! Thursday, headed to Irvine early. Another tour, then met up with Christine's Family friends. Had lunch w/ them, then another mall. Super nice, agaaaaain. At least I know I'll never get let down with the shoppin' if I go to Irvine. We got home supppaaa early Friday morning. I need to decide on college.

Fridaaay, back homee. Errands w/ little brother. Then Costco w/ Moms. Tooka nap, then went to tapex w/ Will, Matt, &Andrew. Headed to Gino's after, then jut came home.
Saturday, helped my ddrick w/ some of his birthdaay stuff then picked up Christine, Courtney and Kimmie. Went to Will's, then prom dress shopping. STILL didn't find a dress. Really startin to give up on that craap. Ate at cheesecake, then came homee. Played rockband for a little, then took Court and Kimmie back to bart. Went w/ Will to Michelle's Cotty practice. Kinda weird..lol me and Trav were kinda outta place. Ahah oh weelll! Stayed there a bit then went back w/ Will to Gino's. I am in loooove w/ Sally's Salon. I am a frkn boss at that game.
&today was a frkn prom dress shopping day disaster.

enchantees

"I would like all of you to write up what your goals are for this season and also whether or not you would like me to continue being your coach and have it typed and all put together to make it anonymous."

Are you serious?? Its our last year, all we want is to have fun. You're making it a much bigger deal that what it really is. How can you be disappointed in us when you know we do it all the time. Sometimes you even provide an promote it. I feel like there's something you're hiding from us, as if you wanna quit on us or something. I'm not making my letter anonymous. I want you to know how I feel about this and I don't want you to think its something I can't say to your face. Yeah we played bad this weekend and did some stuff we shouldn't, but I don't know what you expect from us. I don't know what you want from us. "In light of the situation with Saturday, I will also say that I am pretty fed up with some of the teammates attitudes." I know thats regarding to me in some way. I don't have an attitude, I just make sure I do what I want to do and won't let in. Its not attitude, its just acting how I feel. You're interpreting it all wrong. Stuff like this is what makes me not like basketball. I just want to play. I'm working on that letter now.